30 to 30

So I realized yesterday that I have only 30 more days until I turn 30. Now don't get me wrong; I am not depressed about this. I am really depressed about this!!! I remember when my dad turned thirty (and since I am the youngest of three that says something). He had a (sorta) mid-life crisis and bought a sail boat!! 18 foot hobbie cat; a lot of fun that boat was shame he got rid of it. Now I know some of you are saying, "Hey, you are a guy!! Guys are just growing up at thirty!!"

And maybe thats the problem: I am going to be a full fledged grownup. I am not sure I am ready to give up being a kid. Of course I am going to keep being a kid at heart. I won't be a silly good for nothing twenty-something year old, but instead be that creepy guy with the peter pan complex :( I am not ready to give up sugary cereals, Saturday morning cartoons, and pointless day dreaming.

Sadly I do tend to pick cereals based on their fiber content; not its sugar. "but its frosted mini wheats!!!!", the inner child cries. I don't watch Saturday morning cartoons, actually i don't watch must TV at all anymore. I cancelled my cable account cause it wasn't worth the money. So what I watch now I download off the internet. "I download anime, lots of anime!!!" the inner child tries to argue in vain.

I still day dream. That won't stop, but sometimes that makes working in a gray soul sucking cubical harder then it could. Maybe I should just let the cubical win. let it take away any hopes and dreams. Wait out the rest of my days waiting for retirement like the rest of the sheep. But I think then I would be old. And as much as I am not ready to stop being young; I sure as hell don't want to be old yet!!!!!!!!!

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